State of Mind

Do we have a destined goal set forth be a higher power? Or can we control how our future will play out? How great are the ramifications of our actions? How far do the ripples travel in the ocean of fate?

All these questions, are ones that may never be answered while on this earth. Personally, I find it hard to believe that everything has a greater purpose than presented. I am a man of faith and hard work. Although contrary to my disliking to the thought of everything happens for a reason, I tend to be amazed how horrific situations, in a matter of time, pan out into something pleasant for the individual at hand. I have had a few encounters of this phenomenon, and with every event that seems dismal, somehow transforms into an abundance of great opportunities. This leads me to think this is one of God's doings, but why would he put someone through heartache and pain? Are these tests? Callings? Random happenings that alter different dimensions? I ponder these things as less pleasant events have led be to the University of Northern Colorado, where at first I was skeptical. But the more I grow and open my mind, the more I have come to like the little town of Greeley, and more importantly the University. I have made a solid group of caring friends here, of all ages spanning from 18-25. Opportunities and professors that could launch me into the following years with experience and confidence. I have witnessed some of the most outstanding sights and metal struggles just this past year, opening my mind to better and brighter ideas putting my self in better situations.

To conclude this thought I would like to intertwine these happens to the question that...What am I doing here? Who am I? Where do I wanna go? If I am somewhere else how drastically will it change my life? What do I care about the most?...these questions and the answers that I hope to find out will leave me with a new set of questions...I don't know if these answers are relevant to my "destiny" or who and what I am and will be. But I still wonder if the answers are different how great of a change it would be.... I we really in control?